Is my life completely hopeless?

you answered your own question... sigh.. ive seen as bad as you and ive seen worse than you .. and they still live to be 80 and 90 honey... too many health problems and accidents gosh too many people get hit by cars i hate all transportation.. you do not say how old you are.. depression .. well i see everyone is doomed .. as far as hopeless goes idk its up to you what you wanna do with every precious agonizing moment this mean GOD of ours gave to us as a gift of life... were all so fragile thats why i dont understand why everyone doesnt love one another word wise etc .. maybe your familys all a mess going thru stuff too did you contact them we all tend to get very selfish when we all are suffering ... we dont mean to be selfish its just when we all suffer we all tend to get selfish and intense in our own self why dont you call them now whats your blessings focus..... prayers for you so you wont have any more i hate saying it you know whats... prayers for you .. medical meat grinder .. hope you get some money for pain killers..